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I just had to put my dog to sleep a couple weeks ago. Her name's Shadow and she was the best little dog in the entire world. Shaddybaddy is just a nickname; what can I say it rhymed. She's had diabetes for a couple of years now, had a heart problem (irregular heart beat), and was blind and almost completely deaf, but she still lived to 13. Her organs finally just gave out and she refused to eat because she couldn't keep anything down. My parents and I couldn't keep her alive like that just for our sake. I like to think she's in doggie heaven chasing rabbits and where there's no diabetes and she can see and hear everything. love and miss you

I'm going to try to keep submitting stuff on here, but my mind is in so many other places right now. I don't know what to do. My entire life is falling apart apart and I can't pick up the pieces fast enough. I need something, anything. Friends? I have a few, but I don't talk to many people because I don't want ot get hurt (or find out they don't care). I can't keep living like this - I can't function like this - I can't even call this functioning.    And the worst part?        No one understands. I guess all I can do is hope for the best... and I'm stuck here waiting for a passing feeling in the city I built up and blew to hell I'm

I haven't been on here in forever...my parents didn't really like it so I stopped submitting stuff for awhile. Anyways, all else is well. The only purpose of this entry is to say I'm not dead so I'm done now. sarah